t h e r e m i n i s c e n t s t a r - -
v2.o -star.
thereminiscentstar .
portia jolene ; posh * lene * (:
LALAPOLYPOCKETCHOONG ;
going 19 .
nafa svaf .
attached . =)
they call me starshine ; tinkerbell ; queenLALA*
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broken; and worthless .
hyper .
not what i seem to be .
tend to lose myself in thoughts .
daydreamerr .
sadistic .
black ; hotpeenk ; orange ; white ; purple .
lamee . extremely at times .
comforts people ; but yearns comfort from friends .
cynical .
imperfect .
stubborn .
bossy .
extremely fragile ;
has a soft mushy heart .
am redundant whereever i am . =)
yearns to fly *
je'taime .
the Man Up there . =))
him. =D
churchies .
EEYOREE !
monokuro boo .
cinnamoroll .
starrs .
my telescope . also known as my WIFE . =]
butterflies .
qing tian wawa .
windmills .
carousels .
dancing .
clubbing .
esplanade .
east coast .
southern most point .
changi airport .
marina south .
to be a unique !
blowing bubbles .
jewellery making . =D
taking black&white photographs .
photoshopp !
princess .
cousins shannon&jamie !
sad songs .
piano ; sax ; guitar . (but can't play any)
Monday, September 04, 2006
somehow or another my curiousity always gets the better of me .
and somehow or another i just felt my heart sink literally .
can't stop the thoughts .
can't stop the thoughts .
can't stop the thoughts .
it's resurfacing again .
the wound that i thought was healing suddenly ripped apart .
and blood comes gushing out but there's nothing i can do to stop the bleeding .
i could ask a million questions but yet i choose not to ..
for fear of knowing the answers .
alas . it is true that somethings are better left unknown .
coming down to the topic of trust .
its not that i don't .
but somehow this just seems like a wake up call .
or something on the grounds of that .
and a timely appearance makes things all worse .
and i wonder why you always seem to know when to appear .
but no i rather you not do that .
okay ?
my temperature just went up a notch once more .
head's throbbing and so is my heart from the constant aching since morning .
i'm in awe at my thoughts and what could possibly happen .
a sunny afternoon spent alone at home with myself running a temperature .
ironic thing is that i hate being alone when i'm sick .
but yet i chose to come home instead .
a timely disappearance would be good for now .
for i won't have to stand on my toes waiting for the message that wouldn't come .
but yes .
the fact that whenever i give up waiting a message comes beeping along surfaces in my mind .
fate .
time .
time ..
over ?
no idea .
can't ask .
can't wonder .
can't think .
its a very thin line between what we want it to be and what the reality of the situation is .
you'll be surprised at the number of hearts that has been broken in the process .
broken and chipped fragments of what used to be alive and pumping ..
now lay bloodied and smashed on the grounds towards hope .
i dare not hope .
;elysium.
3:50:00 PM
eternitywithYOU.
Zen Neeon .
new laptop .
Christian Dior - Dolce Vita .
Corrinne May's 2 albums .
Plumb's albums .
Dishwalla's albums .
Nicholas Spark's books .
Levis 501 & Diva Jeans .
Chronicles of Narnia .
a new starglobe . =|
my daisy rock star bass .
